Today is the day that I decide to love myself. I enjoy good food that people on diets will only eat on cheat days. I enjoy new experiences, and love to try new things. How sad would it be to go to a new town or city, visit a recommended restaurant and eat none of their specials because your restricted healthy lifestyle won’t allow it? I want to enjoy my life. The experience of having a bite of hot gooey chocolate chip cookie and a teaspoonful of cold vanilla ice cream together in your mouth, with a wash down of thick milk, is heavenly. I definitely would not trade that for the world!
|Hole in the Wall, Century City Mall, Makati|
Milk, vanilla ice cream and cookie from Scout's Honor.
Williamsburgos pizza from Serious Dough.
Making this decision doesn’t mean I will abandon making healthier choices. If I want to have a bed and breakfast’s must-try pancake, and the meal comes with 2 thick pancakes topped with cream, blueberry jam and bacon on the side, I’ll leave one of the pancakes on my plate. I’ll also shamelessly have the leftover wrapped to take away (Hey I paid for that and can’t just let it go to waste, right?). If given the chance, I will still split meals with my buddies, and will try to eat more fruits and vegetables, on non-special occasions. I will still walk, run, do Pop Pilates, and go hike mountains whenever I can, just because I enjoy doing them.
|The pancake I just described was from Gabby's Bed and Breakfast, Dumaguete City. Yum!|
At the end of the day, it is still about quality of life. If I’m constantly trying to lose weight, and then relapsing, I will be on a cycle of frustration and self-hate. Honestly, beating myself up with negative thoughts because of failure to keep the weight loss, has worn me down. I am tired of that, and so I quit.
This is my life and I choose to spend the rest of it being happy. It does not matter whether I achieve the ideal weight. I have realized that more important than having the perfect body is being happy and comfortable under one’s own skin. I will still try to achieve a balanced diet and a good exercise routine because these are good for my body. This time however, I will do it without the pressure of weight loss. I will do it because I accept and love myself.
|Mt. Daraitan, Tanay, Rizal|
P.S. I was on a diet bet when i wrote an entry about my road to fitness. Yes I won the diet bet (to lose 5 kg in 3 months). Sadly, I gained some of the weight back during finals and the start of vacation; thus the realizations.